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~~~~~~~shit skul days

another week arrived~~~ there is some uncertainty in my mind… put it aside and start my work….

laz week was my birthday week.im so happy dat my beloved frens accompany me thru out d day.thanks to u guys who attended d sing k session , tgi fridays dinner ,drinking session and those wishes from all of u.and those lovely presents…

hahaha…laz week i’ve been absent from classes..eye swollen..woops..reali cham. n i oso felt damn lazy to go skul..fire disappeared lu…. sien ..bored…empty…REALI SO EMPTY

today went to cut my hair….so short edi…happy…a different me.. a fat me.. a empty me….. yeah~~!!!!

how much of d capacity of a heart? herm,sumhow, does it means how many things, incidents and how many ppl dat staying and located in a heart or mind?…. …. uncountable or countable? myself,family,frens n sum1 important n sum1 special…..add on uncountable incidents n stuff dat r fully occupied my heart… … heavy~~~~ gota subtract something from those….

yeah~~ dat’s  all for my chinese new year celebration..its finished!! finally time to relocate n readjust all d time for my assg.. … im stil so lazy…

herm…suddenly a sentence is flashing thru my mind.. a thought dat i wish to express  : " u make me happy in my life, thank you my frens~"

sphohoho~~~~~ back to skul…hello to my 3-2…1 step further….hmm~~~~ready 4 d resit news….

No word can describe my situation now..My student life is jz damn sux in dis semester. wat a horrible attitude im having now.. wat am i doing huh? wat a terrible learning attitude.. is jz bad….all d way!!!

Sarah Lau Zhi Hun.. wat do u wan? retain a?or wasted ur own effort?ur time?ur parents’ money?pls do sth bout it pls.. can neva b like dis anymore… u shud knw wats d result of it…u r big enuf to handle d terrible situation. y r u stil standing thr, doin nth at all? how can u treat urself like dis…pls get ur ass up n do.DO IT FASTER!!!!!!!!!!!

To me:
I shud learn d good attitude frm sum1 though… … i cant be like dis anymore.. it is jz like suicide..killing myself in d future..Wake up darling.. yes.. i am more den wat i have done .. i am more den dat… Pls show ur abiity to others… n left no regression in my student life..

huh~~~ wat a bad days!!! sick~~ omg…today is d fourth day in dis shit condition.absent frm my classes.no energy..moodless sumore feeling so tired n sleepy all d time. i couldn’t concentrate to do my assg.hell~~ god pls heal me..i wan to recover..pls..i wana do my assg aa…. if not i wil die ga…u knw enot… pls…make me recover frm d sickness.T_T

its a public holiday..happy deepavali.hehe

today is assg day.hoho..gona do work later.once again..d incident is flashing in my mind…n again, feeling so uneasy..y i am so weak… y u treat it as a game… but i can tel u, u won ~~

but i hv to tel u, neva treat a gal like dis if u reali dun wan to make it further, dun gv her hope when u dun wan to.pls..not av gal can take it .not av gal can flirt wif u.. n me..u had spoilt my mood.u had spoilt my happy day. but u neva k 1 of it either..although u said..u r my gudfren..but i tel u.. u neva treat me as ur fren.. as u dun wan to waste ur time to reply my msg in msn or sms… a single-word-replied is so hurtful.i rather u dun bother it.

i tried so hard to find a topic to tok wif u, i tried my best to find sth to tel u..but u neva gv in ur feedback..neva chat wif me like a fren shud do.however, i cant blame u for all of dis. u r not surposingly to do it so. n d only thing dat i can do is..keep a distance frm u..no more communication btwn 2 of us. as v r in a diff path. u hv ur life i hv my way..wishing u all d best n bless myself to hv a good future too..goodbye my fren, thong~~~

its another sunday…jz finished drama…finally dai git guk..hehehe~~~now my eyes so tired..but hv to do my work lu…

yaho…i hope dis blog is a happy 1 ho..actuali not happy oso la..is soso le..nth much to tok here oso. yesteday went to mid valley the gardens wif mum..haizz…robinsons..n all those branded shop over thr…wa…i realised money is so much important.kakakaka..i saw so many pretty dresses.

life now is ok… d incident..finally is fading off percent by percent, i bliv it wil disappear frm my heart 1 day.little words to him n frm him..ending is already arrived..nth is important rite nw.jz treat it as a passer by.. n i shud knew it frm d 1st day v tok..frm d 1st word v chat..all cum to d end..its ended…im in my new path n c wat happen all along dis new path ..hehe..

hou la..my brain is empty now.take a short nap 1st..quite sleepy.bye bye… …

oops… … it has been a week..my mood stil on n off..skul day is so much better den staying alone at home.at least i c my fren, wif jokes around,full of hectic stuff,full of programs, eat, swim,meeting ppls. crap n hanging around.

wateva happen,my frens r oways thr 4 me…willing to lend me a pair of ears ,a pair of eyes n a pair of hands to listening my troubles,keep watching at me, and helps me to get thru.glad dat im having lovable frens.thank you!!!

although im not fully recovered, as u guys know, tears is d best mate and a kind of expression when im feeling not right at all, when im moody.tears, maybe it start to roll down when my heart feels d pain,when my mind is full of those words dat used to make me happy n touched.when i am seriously missing him..missing his reminder,missing d moments….

honestly, it had already affect my emotion, my studies..it is so bad to me,especialy my studies.its getting lousier n lousier, worse n even d worst .but from 1st november, i promised to myself, fight in it, do my best , nth beat me down and pull me down.i hv to save myself b4 im drown to die.

em, nex monday wil be his 1st working day, hopefully he got a good performance in his company.having good relationship wif colleagues and fantastic moment in his working day.although he is slowly walking out of my attention,absent from my close attention, but he is oways thr to cheer others in his life… …hopefully he got a wonderful career and get his phd … …

gona pen off nw, c u later, guys…hopefull d nex bog im going to write is d happy blog … wishing everyone of u hv a nice day ahead

its a rainy day…from today 2 am til nw.. its stil raining..god is crying 4 me.. god wil be thr 4 me, i know~~ my heart stil pain, my heart is wounded..although i bliv it is jz a temporary, hopefully.

it is so hurtful… … do u know? all dis while, i tot v hv so much space, v hv chance to build up our current relationship, our feelings. but sadly, i am misunderstand and mistaken all of ur words. i am a fool. well, i feel so thankful 4 ur true confession. i am glad to knw d truth.its okay 4 me, oops, u hv broken my good record, mr choong.

specially dedicated to u,seizaibao:

thank u for being wif me all d time in these months.listening all my complains at times.sharing n lecturing wif me.so much appreciated on ur calls, ur nagging, ur sweet sms to me, ur advice….ur support, ur praising n d time 4 me.although thr r no space n chance to develop further, i am glad dat u r willing to remain as my fren, as u said, good fren perhaps.u make my day happy, touched n sweet.i wil keep in my heart n wil take all ur words n advice into my life practice. n wil cont to -fei…hehe.

even though it is a bad day 4 me, i think i wil strive thru.dun worry my frens who knw bout dis. i wil make sure i am fine. sorry to say dat i disturbed u guys dis few days.but thanks to u all who r stil supporting me.stay wif me.i love u all.

lazly, i wish myself hv a nice day…. …. good day is coming.