PiNk LOvEr

herm….new blog again..hehe..too free.but i oso wana drop by n update my latest news .herm…big miracle n present 4 me at tuesday mrg.(15th august 2006) im reali glad to noe all d stuff dat r so annoying is over. for dis time..he has sent me a msg to apologise. n im so happy to noe wats on his mind all ths time.

although a miracle do occured..but im reali hope d nex wonderful moment is approaching soon.dats all depends on me. i wil do my best to get off those things dat r bugging me.as he said..v r stil fren..if im totally can let those thing gone..d sunshine wil cum soon… i hope wat he said is actuali happen in d future.

finally..i can c a turning point..a light dat leads me n him to our frenship.after all these "fung fung yu yu"..i realised dat dis frenship yuen loi is so important to me..i reali dun wan to loose a fren since i dun wan myself to regret in one day.

in brief..im feel so relax n happy cuz all those things r over.about d ending…me n him has done a change on it.n its not d end..its a new episod of us(our life.our frenship) hope n wish all dat experiences wil make us grow n lead us to a wonderful path in our life… n continue our journey..

jz drop by n saying sth… is dat our pity ending? is dat our need? is dat v want it to be?herm… bout d ending..is not i want.is totally out of my hope.my wish…is it d blog i created is offensiv to u? im reali reali sorry…

i jz realise dats not i want it to be….but it forced to be like dat…im reali dun hv another way to make myself strong.so im choosing dis way to end it.1stly, i dun wan to b ur hurdles..ur burden..ur problem…2ndly, i jz wan to make clear of my mind..jz to erase u from my memory..but it seems so hard to me…but its 4 my own gd..n i think its oso makes u feel better anyway..3rdly… i jz hope dis boundary..dis distance n space wil make us grow…mentally maturity.. i hope it helps.

the ending..i feel it so cruel to myself..its like a nitemare 4 me. but i bliv dat after a heavy rain n cloudy day..its sure hv a shiny n warm day wif a colorful rainbow..im waiting d moment… … i hope it wil exist one day…. im waiting it…god bless……. take k___jasper

it has been almost 1 week ++ i din write sth new rite here.in these days..i think alot of stuff.alot of things keep on  flashing on my mind. erm..i os oduno wat to do..but overall my life is so far so gd le..quite happy actuali.

hehe..today i jz went to sing k wit my fren.friday noon.hahaha..damn syok .even though jz 4 ppl,,but reali sing non stop..hehehe..so long air.jz sing n sing n sing..hehehewat song oso sing..no voice jo la.i love to sing k especially when i was abit free..cuz it makes me happy n get along wif my fren..expressing feelings thru d song. so far not yet sing til cry la.wahahah..dun hv so kua jiong.

for the most important thing…2 weeks later i wil enter my major course.actuali i got abit nervous cuz it is a new life for me.a path dat i used to replace my dream(fashion design) illuistration is my major course though.i hope i wont regret wat i choose now.cuz i oledi wasted 2 yrs of time in tarc..

However..when i was studying in tarc..i gain alot..especially some frenship dat i used to appreciate very much.missing al my frens over thr.hope they r doing well. n i got a sweet n yet bitter memory for 5 months in tarc.even though it was a tough relationship..but i reali reali appreciated dis 5 months of time. n bcuz of dis ..i lost my biggest smile.i lost my rationality. but now i’m ready to let go dis stupid feelings.for dis time.i think i reali reali "sam tam"  it reali hurts me so much..deep n big hole in my heart. but all dis suffocation its my own responsibility.it’s all bcuz im stil loving him stupidly after v had broken up for 2 yrs ago.

haih……watever in d future cums along… im stil face it bravely n i wont be beaten down. cuz i strongly bliv dat no1 can help us if v r too weak to help ourselves. i know its hard.but i gota do it.. n i got my family n frens to cheer me up..giving me happiness… my life now jz perfect…thanks mummy n daddy..thanks to my fren who advise me..listen my complain n bla bla bla..im feel comfortable .

ok la…i think i gota stop here…bye bye… cheersszzz