PiNk LOvEr

oops… … it has been a week..my mood stil on n off..skul day is so much better den staying alone at home.at least i c my fren, wif jokes around,full of hectic stuff,full of programs, eat, swim,meeting ppls. crap n hanging around.

wateva happen,my frens r oways thr 4 me…willing to lend me a pair of ears ,a pair of eyes n a pair of hands to listening my troubles,keep watching at me, and helps me to get thru.glad dat im having lovable frens.thank you!!!

although im not fully recovered, as u guys know, tears is d best mate and a kind of expression when im feeling not right at all, when im moody.tears, maybe it start to roll down when my heart feels d pain,when my mind is full of those words dat used to make me happy n touched.when i am seriously missing him..missing his reminder,missing d moments….

honestly, it had already affect my emotion, my studies..it is so bad to me,especialy my studies.its getting lousier n lousier, worse n even d worst .but from 1st november, i promised to myself, fight in it, do my best , nth beat me down and pull me down.i hv to save myself b4 im drown to die.

em, nex monday wil be his 1st working day, hopefully he got a good performance in his company.having good relationship wif colleagues and fantastic moment in his working day.although he is slowly walking out of my attention,absent from my close attention, but he is oways thr to cheer others in his life… …hopefully he got a wonderful career and get his phd … …

gona pen off nw, c u later, guys…hopefull d nex bog im going to write is d happy blog … wishing everyone of u hv a nice day ahead

its a rainy day…from today 2 am til nw.. its stil raining..god is crying 4 me.. god wil be thr 4 me, i know~~ my heart stil pain, my heart is wounded..although i bliv it is jz a temporary, hopefully.

it is so hurtful… … do u know? all dis while, i tot v hv so much space, v hv chance to build up our current relationship, our feelings. but sadly, i am misunderstand and mistaken all of ur words. i am a fool. well, i feel so thankful 4 ur true confession. i am glad to knw d truth.its okay 4 me, oops, u hv broken my good record, mr choong.

specially dedicated to u,seizaibao:

thank u for being wif me all d time in these months.listening all my complains at times.sharing n lecturing wif me.so much appreciated on ur calls, ur nagging, ur sweet sms to me, ur advice….ur support, ur praising n d time 4 me.although thr r no space n chance to develop further, i am glad dat u r willing to remain as my fren, as u said, good fren perhaps.u make my day happy, touched n sweet.i wil keep in my heart n wil take all ur words n advice into my life practice. n wil cont to -fei…hehe.

even though it is a bad day 4 me, i think i wil strive thru.dun worry my frens who knw bout dis. i wil make sure i am fine. sorry to say dat i disturbed u guys dis few days.but thanks to u all who r stil supporting me.stay wif me.i love u all.

lazly, i wish myself hv a nice day…. …. good day is coming.

its a rainy sunday..as usual, wake up at 11am, brush teeth n take my breakfast. on9 …stare on d screen n dreaming, fatt ngau dao… to waste d time..to pass those time.. i hope avday oso can pass faster so dat avday can end faster.. …

today, i am so depressed. i try to tok wif my frens. d 3 poor frens..i keep on bla bla bla n bla my probs to them..to make myself feel i am not neglected, to make myself more comfortable. pouring out all of d shit is kinda daily routine 4 me. whether to myself to my frens or my family. however, das 1 thing 4 sure, i wil not tears infront of them.

thanks ms purple, ms xiao jing n mr lex..for comforting me n try to make me laugh.. so much appreciated. but den i knw, d final decision is on my hand. n i decided to put it away n protect myself 4 harm.i am so much better right now, i hope u guys especially xiao jing oso wil be fine … … lets fight ..ok?

erm…time to wake up n do my assg… hv to force myself back to d reality..neva looking back, neva regret n neva n ever get into d deep sea again.. i dun wan to drown anymore.pls… … i am so tired ..dun hv to struggle anymore.. i wil be fine. very soon, hopefully .

em…weekend again..

yes..finally it disappeared… n now..so numb… time to put it down n move on… … suen bala

"its getting farther & farther…. further n further away… … until it disappear…."

when it left nth to me… …hopefully avthing wil be alrite~

                                                                         -sarah-

eh yeah… stil so lazy to start my work.omg…too lazy , my new skul..make me quite disappointed.. d environment, d ambience over thr..the feel in my college…all gone. i missing my old skul..i missing it badly..how r u? my old dasein.

d new starting point 4 our beloved dasein..can it be improved and be back on track in a very short period? so far, i dun hv d warm and comfortable feeling to d new1.mayb i need more time to get myself adapted to it and used to those so-called "workshop based" facilities.

i think it is jz a very low cost renovation..an economic budgeted skul..haizz… stil .."the curve" car park flooring  is better den my skul flooring.. hahaha..quite sarcastic rite… car park is better den a college …i cant imagine how am i going to get used to it … n d toilet…a cement flooring i dun get to c a very basic square tile..it is not ok 4 me n for my fren oso… i hope my skul can be improved sooner or later.

its midnite…. my mood is down….jz wana to hv a good cry..but i told myself… no more tears 4 all of dis… be strong…miss sarah… it is jz a dream… a stupid dream….. gd nite, sweet dream n hugz 4 myself