PiNk LOvEr

its a rainy sunday..as usual, wake up at 11am, brush teeth n take my breakfast. on9 …stare on d screen n dreaming, fatt ngau dao… to waste d time..to pass those time.. i hope avday oso can pass faster so dat avday can end faster.. …

today, i am so depressed. i try to tok wif my frens. d 3 poor frens..i keep on bla bla bla n bla my probs to them..to make myself feel i am not neglected, to make myself more comfortable. pouring out all of d shit is kinda daily routine 4 me. whether to myself to my frens or my family. however, das 1 thing 4 sure, i wil not tears infront of them.

thanks ms purple, ms xiao jing n mr lex..for comforting me n try to make me laugh.. so much appreciated. but den i knw, d final decision is on my hand. n i decided to put it away n protect myself 4 harm.i am so much better right now, i hope u guys especially xiao jing oso wil be fine … … lets fight ..ok?

erm…time to wake up n do my assg… hv to force myself back to d reality..neva looking back, neva regret n neva n ever get into d deep sea again.. i dun wan to drown anymore.pls… … i am so tired ..dun hv to struggle anymore.. i wil be fine. very soon, hopefully .

em…weekend again..

yes..finally it disappeared… n now..so numb… time to put it down n move on… … suen bala

"its getting farther & farther…. further n further away… … until it disappear…."

when it left nth to me… …hopefully avthing wil be alrite~

                                                                         -sarah-

eh yeah… stil so lazy to start my work.omg…too lazy , my new skul..make me quite disappointed.. d environment, d ambience over thr..the feel in my college…all gone. i missing my old skul..i missing it badly..how r u? my old dasein.

d new starting point 4 our beloved dasein..can it be improved and be back on track in a very short period? so far, i dun hv d warm and comfortable feeling to d new1.mayb i need more time to get myself adapted to it and used to those so-called "workshop based" facilities.

i think it is jz a very low cost renovation..an economic budgeted skul..haizz… stil .."the curve" car park flooring  is better den my skul flooring.. hahaha..quite sarcastic rite… car park is better den a college …i cant imagine how am i going to get used to it … n d toilet…a cement flooring i dun get to c a very basic square tile..it is not ok 4 me n for my fren oso… i hope my skul can be improved sooner or later.

its midnite…. my mood is down….jz wana to hv a good cry..but i told myself… no more tears 4 all of dis… be strong…miss sarah… it is jz a dream… a stupid dream….. gd nite, sweet dream n hugz 4 myself

feeling not right.. feel d distance .. feel so empty .. feel all goin back to d starting point… like a stranger…. 280907

almost 2pm in d hot afternoon….. laz9 was so tired..bcuz i jz managed to sleep not more den 3 hours…all bcuz of d comic~~~~ i hate it…den get ready to skul..but, when i get in my car, msg in my fon..class cancelled..wat d hell…

actuali planning not to go to skul.. bcuz i reali so sleepy n feel dizzy..but bcuz of my hardworking(ness)…in d end, din sleep +class cancelled..wa… so sien aa~~~

end up sitting infront of tv being a couch potato..den play my new toy..( yes!! it is my new treadmill)so called running machine..hahahaha…played it 30 mins..wa..sweat like hell..

erm…-fei aa -fei aa… hehehe..hope i reali got d strength la. haih..gona take d gown frm dat sei zai bao le… hahaha..u mr choong, wait me waste all ur money 4 1 gown..muahaahha..die lo u…bankrupt again. honestly , feel so thankful 4 his support. n thanks 4 listening my complain oways..hehe. ur baby gal trying not to disappoint u..i muz lost weight..kekekeek

noulik +yao..hahahaha, holiday coming soon again..yippee.wallpainting almost kick off…hope itcan be done within 1 week le…den stil got another week to rest. praying to god..til here..byess

hahahah..d laziest is coming back.. end my 2-3 sem … means my 2nd year in dasein finally come to d end..a fullstop for my 2nd year…d whole year..major in illustration, giving me some good n bad experiences at d same time.

finally,i manage to strive thru n stil alive.hehehe… thinking back, reali wana congrats myself for my strength and effort. its reali not easy. for me..being an art & design student.. reali hv to sacrifice some personal time n stuff to satisfy our demand in our creation n artwork.but its worth…

going to start my new sem again.. 3-1 .. a whole new challenging year for me.. going to be an old senior in skul. 3rd year.. d laz year in dasein… i muz produce a reali good work for my portfolio.. d laz year for me to fully enjoy my student life… dis is my commitment for myself.. i hope i realise it, i wana realise it….

If i were a tear, i hope to be born in ur eyes,

live on ur cheeks n die on ur lips.

But if u were my tear,

i would never cry cuz i dun wana lose u.

a paragraph dat’s saving in my fon since 24april04

life’s boring now……. ………. doing d same stuff avday… follow d daily routine..go skul,eat, back home, do assg… bath..watch tv  n sleep..haih~~~ sien